Screwed.

I'm feeling like.. I don't know.

I can't feel anything. Everything's so boring right now. I find no interest in school, studies and band. I find it scary cause I've never been like this before. I may have my laughs in class but, I'm not feeling happy. Nor am I sad. Just, nothing. PTM was a few days ago. I told myself I wanna do better. But I don't have the motivation to do so.

I have come to a conclusion that I'm mentally asleep. But I can't find ways to get myself back. I thought of something kinda stupid which was to cut myself so that I can finally feel something after a long while. IT WAS STUPID. So I didn't. Now I really can't wake up. I'm just not interested.