honesty the best policy? maybe not the best, but better.

i've been having sleepless nights lately. during lessons, i'll just give up listening and go to sleep. i know some of you are like "i sleep late too, but i'm not like you." i'm not like you either. i'm not used to sleeping so late, so my body clock is freaking screwed. i tend to get cranky or crazy. to me, being a cranky person means that a person is honest. but usually in a rude manner. so yeah. i am that person right now. it's not a change in attitude. i'm just too tired of bullshit.

too tired of people being dramatic.
too tired of people who are all like "come say it to my face" and end up saying "keep your opinions to yourself" people like that are just afraid to admit that they're behaving in such a manner. but i respect people who want others to be straightforward to them and making changes.
too tired of being a girl. yes, girls have friends who are dudes and are dirty in the mind. i really don't mind. i don't mind being called horny cause i mean, if you're not, then you were born in the wrong direction. i'm open minded(a change in me and i hope people could accept it. :D) but there definitely is a limit. i'm not all slutty. (btw, people who use the words 'slut' on a girl who doesn't fuck, but just wears too revealing clothes, learn your english) so yes, i don't fuck. therefore, i'm not a slut and still a virgin(till i get married). i'm just a bitch who wants to say what's on my mind.
too tired of people making others change but not making a change in themselves. i mean like, check yourself first before checking others. yeah. (fyi, i did some attitude check when i go and take my showers)
too tired of being an 'expectation'. hello people in disappointment, i'm not a barbie doll. i don't have perfect boobs. i can't do a split when you want me too. i can't smile and be pretty 24/7. and i don't have blonde hair. so, whatever failure i made, i made it. i tried. i made an effort. i will do better. someday somehow.
too tired of watching people leaving.