KONY 2012

if my life was like this, in the future, i'll tell my children. I REGRET NOTHING. HEH.

I AM SO HAPPY

AFTER THE LONG PRAYING AND WAITING. THANK YOU GOD. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. IT'S BEEN HARD BUT WE FINALLY PULLED THROUGH.

The reason why

My afternoon was great!(: I felt that the weight on my shoulders has extinct as I went home. Spent the afternoon with the clique. Oh how I miss all of them!! Had lunch and off to watch Johnny English Reborn! The movie was freaking hilarious! Laughed throughout the movie! There was this really cute kid who was laughing like a maniac. I swear it was kinda awkward cause he was laughing to himself. I was freezing the whole time even though i was using Alexa's cardigan. Esther kept complaining about the temperature. Typical retarded Esther. Then we chilled at MacD. We played the Truth or Dare game on Desmond's phone and we talked about certain things(: THANKS SO MUCH FOR LISTENING GUYS<3 Reallyyyyyy felt damn awesome today. There wasn't as much awkward silences but I love spending time with the clique. ALL SO HAPPY ONE. Can't wait for tomorrow!! WEEEEEE~

clingy

Today, I realized what I said was true. People leave. I should stop dreaming that they'll stay the same, that they'll never leave. They moved on. Why am I so stupid to cling onto them? They found someone special, or someone new. I felt forgotten. I felt like I wasn't needed anymore. I felt like an old toy that's too boring for people to play with, left on a corner in the house, collecting dusts and hoping for someone to pick me up again. But at the same time, I'm filled with doubt and hopelessness.  What's worse is that they're much happier. I know I sound very selfish but.. it's the same on the other side. I'm not blaming them but they left. Either way, it's a selfish world, what do people expect right? The world also moves on. Which means I have to do the same.

more leaves and the silence just gets louder

"Nobody would stick with you. They'll leave you eventually." Someone tweeted this and many things flowed through my mind.

I watched them leave. To be honest, it hurts a lot. I wonder whether it was because we didn't make an effort to continue our friendships. Whether we got too caught up with our own plans that we forgot. Knowing that nothing lasts forever kinda sucks. I mean like why bother to start something when we know it's gonna end. Especially when the ending is heartbreaking.

All of us wonder and hope whether someone distant, would think about us just for a minute. I know that I would. I too have left certain people who are worth staying for. Guilt eats me up but I'm afraid of making efforts. Usually it ends up that one party stops and the other eventually will. We don't bother about it anymore because we get bored. We meet more new people. Deep talks, confessions, etc. They don't exist anymore because we're all laughs. Because it's less awkward. I'm talking shit right now cause I can't think straight. Don't mind me. Anyway, I hope, in the future that I won't get too attached to people cause I don't wanna get hurt. Heh.